Anxieties Surrounding What I Will do After University

I will be going to Italy following my graduation, where I will be able to spend the summer working as an intern at an Agro-tourism Bed & Breakfast. Even though I now have a temporary solution for what I will technically be “doing” after university, I am still fearful about what I will do next. I know that this is a personal piece that I m writing so I hope my audience will not feel too bad about reading such an account. 
It is strange how this feeling of worry and discomfort about the future has crept into my head once again. I was happy with the prospects about the future, but knowing that this position will be only three much, which is very temporary is upsetting in some ways concerning the future. I know that once this summer internship is over I will be low on cash so by kicking the preverbial can down the road I will have a much larger issue when I either return to the United States or move onto another country. I am one person that I think needs to experience uncertainty so that I might be able to cope with it better in the future, but it is nerve racking thinking about how I know nothing in regard to what will become of me once this short chapter is over. Part of me is hopeful that I might be guided to a better opportunity during my stay at the Bed & Breakfast, but another part of me wants to tirelessly plan for what might be just over the horizon. I know that I have the opportunity to work in China as an English instructor, or to work in Ireland following my time in Italy, which is encouraging as I do want to remain abroad rather than returning to the United States. I know that China provides more certainty as I do have a specific job opportunity, but I am more drawn to Ireland as I do have a greater interest in Ireland in general even though it would be a greater risk. I know that I am lucky as I do have something for the time right after graduation, and I know a number of people that do not even have that, but I hope that this will act as a book mark in this chapter of my life. If you are experiencing this right now I do sympathize with you, but on the bright side I have been through much worse and this will soon pass. I think that the most important thing is to stay focused on the present and being grateful for the opportunities I do have in front of me even though there is a great amount of uncertainty. 
I would like to thank you for reading this if you have gotten this far through the posting. I will be having an interview tomorrow with a local political organization, so I might make a post about preparing for an interview and also finding internship/job opportunities while you are still a student. From reading then above you should be able to deduce that I am no means an expert, but if it does help provide someone with an alternative perspective which allows them to reach some level of understanding that is all that is worth it. I will keep you all posted about what is happening with me next, as this is kind of like my own personal journal that is accessible to all the people of the world. I should also be purchasing airplane tickets soon so I will keep you posted about how I book them, which is how I have been told to book them from other blogger. Even so I did find an interesting difference of around $300.00 between Kayak and Skyscanner on the same search so that could be enlightening to all you readers. Hope you have a good stress and worry free evening (:

…Four More Months? eek!

Okay so it’s the end of January now, graduation is in May and I don’t have any clear set options open for when that date of May 15th rolls along and I’m part of the “Work Force.” I know that most people probably have some sort of plan, like I’m going to work for XYZ company, or I’m going to be full time at my kick-ass summer job, unfortunately this is not my situation.

With this predicament comes great opportunity – the world is your oyster and anything can happen, be made, or fostered out of this pit of uncertainty. I know that I’m not keen on becoming whatever hot sales, product marketer, or insurance job is listed on Indeed.com, so that leaves me with a variety of options, which differ from the traditional path that the typical college graduate might follow. I know that my friends who have already graduated work at bars, or insurance agencies, or banks, or non-profit organizations moving drinks or papers from one end of a table to another. This could be very exciting and I’m sure that the office, or bar drama, especially the bar drama, is rather exciting, but I hope to do something different with the few years I have until assets start to tie myself down. I have had some ideas on what I hope to do next, but one arrives as the next one disappears into the abyss it emerged from.

I do want to work in a field that I find interesting, something that I might be able to receive some enjoyment from, rather than customer service, which I hate with some of the strongest passions found upon this humble planet. I have thought about teaching abroad, becoming a pilot/working in the travel industry in some sort of fashion, finding some sort of remote work that I could do abroad, and creating a business that I could operate abroad. All of these are a work in progress, but the one thing that I am leaning towards is creating a location independent cooperation, or finding remote work in whatever industry might need my services.

I hope to share my worries, anxieties, and concerns with all of you since this is something that I am dealing with and if it helps someone in a similar situation that would be awesome. Also by doing this it might help me put my ideas into words, which then can be read by people who might be able to receive some value from this unique time in my life. Anyways I hope that this small article was enjoyable, and I hope to be posting another one soon.

Best,

-Edward